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  • I didn’t see that coming

    There are certain things I expect when I go to the doctors office, depending on the doctors specialty. When I go to the dentist I expect some anxiety, fear, discomfort and pain. I also expect to laugh at the stereotypical question when my mouth is full of tools and fingers. When I go to the…

  • OK Spoon —

    Here’s the deal. I am going to sit here and hold my breath until you reveal yourself to me. And, I mean your identity. Not expose, reveal! Here I go. I mean it, I’m doing it. I am. Holding. Still holding. Still holding, Stil This isn’t over Spoon. I have utensil access too ya know.…

  • Let me clear something up –

    OK – it has come to my attention that my angry, self-destructive, pointed and vague venting on this site concerns a person or two. I do not think it should so much but, I guess if I knew how to think proper I would not be rambling on in support or preemptive euthanasia. So, I…

  • How did I miss it?

    OK – part of my de-funk, kick the depression suggestion was too exercise. Activity that might result in sweat or elevated heart rate. I am not motivated to feed my self much less get up and DO something. Really. One of the best parts of having gotten into massage school is that, the particular school…

  • Hello Monday –

    Let’s take a look see at what’s up. Laundry list of stuff with no point or meaning. ( just re-read this, not much worth reading) Beautiful weather leads to sinus pain. But at least it is nice out while I am passed out knocked down from antihistamines. All four creatures are fine although in need…

  • Unique, in all the usual ways.

    I used to love that phrase. Taken from a play I do not recall anything else about. I still like to say it. It occurred to me earlier today that this relentless pain and unhappiness I am feeling the past few weeks is never going to go away. It will simply become more and more…

  • Milestones and other hard things –

    April 1st 1996 I quit smoking. I am still a non-smoker. Although I have been told a few times, when drinking too much, I took a drag or two. Still, eleven years of not smoking. April 4th 2007, 10 months of not drinking. No, not sips or tastes when, well, not when drinking, that’s for…

  • Hey God, it’s me.

    I another life time, world, in a body I do not recall at all, I was privileged enough to attend a parochial school. Christian of the Lutheran flavor.  At the time I  was a pretty solid believer and had eyes on the big prize of pastoring. That, like so many other good ideas, went away,…

  • The bright side?

    OK, some freaking optimist once said, every dark cloud has a silver lining, or some treacle sweet crap like that. Maybe it was a show tune or early version motivational poster. Not matter, the bright part of any dark cloud is most likely the lightning coming at you and by some ‘good’ fortune you are…

  • Knock Knock?

    How fast does a though occur? Where does it start, get all it parts and pieces, to put itself together and invade the gray matter? Give itself form and with that, give itself meaning, strength. Power. How does something without any true existence have power? Where does this intangible, not really there thing, get the…