Category: Sobriety
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11 months
May 4th. The day before the more American than Mexican holiday of Cinco de Mayo. A short milestone for me. Eleven months sober. Or, more exactly, eleven months of not drinking. I made a point of the difference some time ago. One is working to make yourself a better person while not using. The other…
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Let me clear something up –
OK – it has come to my attention that my angry, self-destructive, pointed and vague venting on this site concerns a person or two. I do not think it should so much but, I guess if I knew how to think proper I would not be rambling on in support or preemptive euthanasia. So, I…
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Hello Monday –
Let’s take a look see at what’s up. Laundry list of stuff with no point or meaning. ( just re-read this, not much worth reading) Beautiful weather leads to sinus pain. But at least it is nice out while I am passed out knocked down from antihistamines. All four creatures are fine although in need…
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Milestones and other hard things –
April 1st 1996 I quit smoking. I am still a non-smoker. Although I have been told a few times, when drinking too much, I took a drag or two. Still, eleven years of not smoking. April 4th 2007, 10 months of not drinking. No, not sips or tastes when, well, not when drinking, that’s for…
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Knock Knock?
How fast does a though occur? Where does it start, get all it parts and pieces, to put itself together and invade the gray matter? Give itself form and with that, give itself meaning, strength. Power. How does something without any true existence have power? Where does this intangible, not really there thing, get the…
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Is poise the word?
It’s 7:15 am. I’m in a room with about 100 people. A young woman has been asked to read a page from a book. It is about six paragraphs, 14 point type, laminated page. I’ve heard it many times and read it some too. She starts off loud, clear, steady. In the second sentence she…
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9 months
Hm. So this is 9 months. Not such a big deal. I’ve had a long week with lots of doubt, speculation, some confusion and anger. I have spent time wondering about why and where I am in “the process” – “the program”. Easy answer, not much of anywhere in program. Just reading the book and…
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Struggling with addiction?
Bullshit. I am not struggling with it at all. I just quit. Just like I quit smoking 10 plus years ago. Just like I quite cocaine 20 plus/plus years ago. Do in need the mantle of “alcoholic” to be or stay sober? Do I need “The Program” to stay sober? Sadly, only time will tell.…
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8 months
Well, I forgot about this. 8 months today. On the calender system. Funny, today I have to go to court against my old sponsor. Well, not funny at all. Might I suggest never mixing your AA program and employment? Sponsor-less, stuck in the middle of my fourth step and really thinking I need to go…
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When to stop –
I have one more theater commitment this calender year. Some summer thing. Then I am done! If you ever see anything in here even close to suggesting I am in anyway involved with anything to do with theater, point me to the little black spy capsule! I am finished with this. added too, amended or…
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