Author: Giancarlo Gori

  • Unique, in all the usual ways.

    I used to love that phrase. Taken from a play I do not recall anything else about. I still like to say it. It occurred to me earlier today that this relentless pain and unhappiness I am feeling the past few weeks is never going to go away. It will simply become more and more…

  • Milestones and other hard things –

    April 1st 1996 I quit smoking. I am still a non-smoker. Although I have been told a few times, when drinking too much, I took a drag or two. Still, eleven years of not smoking. April 4th 2007, 10 months of not drinking. No, not sips or tastes when, well, not when drinking, that’s for…

  • Hey God, it’s me.

    I another life time, world, in a body I do not recall at all, I was privileged enough to attend a parochial school. Christian of the Lutheran flavor.  At the time I  was a pretty solid believer and had eyes on the big prize of pastoring. That, like so many other good ideas, went away,…

  • The bright side?

    OK, some freaking optimist once said, every dark cloud has a silver lining, or some treacle sweet crap like that. Maybe it was a show tune or early version motivational poster. Not matter, the bright part of any dark cloud is most likely the lightning coming at you and by some ‘good’ fortune you are…

  • Knock Knock?

    How fast does a though occur? Where does it start, get all it parts and pieces, to put itself together and invade the gray matter? Give itself form and with that, give itself meaning, strength. Power. How does something without any true existence have power? Where does this intangible, not really there thing, get the…

  • 3 for 3 and still surprised

    Three years (+/- a few days) ago, a Maundy Thursday, an man placed his right hand on my left shoulder, leaned forward so close out hair and foreheads lightly touched. He prayed for me. Or, is it ‘over’ me? It was, without a doubt, about me. I had spoken few words to this man and…

  • I gotta note!

    OK, it’s official. I am depressed. Well shoot. Maybe not anymore. Hard to tell the difference at this point. This may take some ‘splainin’. Comfy? OK – long ramble of for no apparent reason. I may actually touch on that too. Anyone’s guess at this stage The last several weeks I’ve been in a near…

  • Wheat free eating –

    Let me begin with this – I have a final tomorrow and not much confidence in the outcome. I should be studying for it but my brain has turned to mush. That is a warning. What comes next may not make any sense. I have almost no intention of re-reading or editing or attempting to…

  • Is poise the word?

    It’s 7:15 am. I’m in a room with about 100 people. A young woman has been asked to read a page from a book. It is about six paragraphs, 14 point type, laminated page. I’ve heard it many times and read it some too. She starts off loud, clear, steady. In the second sentence she…

  • 9 months

    Hm. So this is 9 months. Not such a big deal. I’ve had a long week with lots of doubt, speculation, some confusion and anger. I have spent time wondering about why and where I am in “the process” – “the program”. Easy answer, not much of anywhere in program. Just reading the book and…