Let me clear something up –

OK – it has come to my attention that my angry, self-destructive, pointed and vague venting on this site concerns a person or two. I do not think it should so much but, I guess if I knew how to think proper I would not be rambling on in support or preemptive euthanasia. So, I like to plan ahead, problem with that?

Yea, my heart got broke like a cheap champagne flute at a Jewish wedding. Yea, I sleep like shit and have a cornucopia of thoughts at all times. Yea, I have been talking out loud too, screaming at, whispering too, and looking over my shoulder for God, in any form. Yea, I have not been to a meeting in a while and I spend all day with booze and beer. Yea, I fall off the wheat wagon at least once a week. Yea, I am fucking livid with everything until a second later when I am totally apathetic about it.

I still believe suicide is perfectly OK because I just believe some people can not get the hang of living. I have way too many commitments and a long list yet. Chill. Let me vent. I’ll let ya know if I am scaring myself. I let you know everything else don’t I? It has screwed me but I still let ya know.

Now – I am not doing the things I should be doing at this very moment. I know that by the time you read this, that may not be true, then again, I has as an equal chance of being true too. Hm. Does that count as deep, profound, provocative or just bad grammar bullshit?

No noose in hand,

Ant-Knee

PS, if you piss me off or hurt me and write about it, I don’t use names or enough detail to make you known. If you are hurt or offend, too bad. Chances are, I was hurt or offended enough to need to get it out of my head where it can hurt me. It makes me laugh and cry that some won’t read this anymore because it hurt their feelings. You where not hurt. Only upset that someone might think I was talking about YOU. Your image is safe, no one knows. Even you have no clue.

PSS – who does read this?