Good things too –

It has been pointed out to me that this space is usually a dark, brooding, bitching, whining, negative jumble of emotion and hyperbole. I contains facts and details that could be considered “over-sharing” while simultaneously being frustratingly vague on what exactly has happened and to or by whom.

To this I reply, “Yea, I know.”

This began as a place for a distant friend to keep up on what was up with me. So, I wrote about what was up with me. Everything. I found that doing so had a magnificent effect on making me feel better. Helped me to process  events,  get a better view of them as I attempting describe them in text.

I also must admit, there is a definitive lack of happy, this is good, I’m doing fine kinda stuff here. On occasion, a huge lack of. I am going to jump into unfamiliar territory here and try to say something entertaining about something good.

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OK – Massage work. I have work. These days that is a very big deal and great news. Doing body work is a mostly satisfying way to earn a living. The ability to effect a change in someone, help them feel better, is a very cool thing.  To show someone a simple thing they can do to elevate their discomfort, pain: then have them come back and tell you how much better they feel, nice. No, I don’t worry about losing the client. They always come back!

It is also pretty satisfying to have 75% of my schedule filled with returning clients. I must be doing something right. Even I have to admit that.

OK – Wedding work. I have a bunch of weddings already booked for this year and the phone keeps ringing! I do find it odd that March and September are so busy and June/July are flat. Go figure.

OK – Theater work. I love this. I am being paid to do what I used to do free all the time. I am able to do it, take time off of massage schedule, to be in a theater. WOW! I must say, the number of hours I am  paid for to the number I am putting in are not quite (even close) equal. This is fine. Nothing like having a director say they love their stage. Ah, success!

OK- Apartment. Although this process has become very dragged out, stopped and started up again, created some animosity with a good friend, it seems that soon I will be living on my own again. I look forward to it with excitement and apprehension. When I actually make it in there – I will write and leave some photos.

SO – there ya go. I am work on improving and healing my body. I am working on improving my job skills. I am progressing on healing and upgrading my outlook, spirit, soul and over all mental health.

Over-all, things are good. See – I just don’t know yet how to express with the same passion the good things as I do the bad. As life continues to get better, I will have to learn that – to have the same passion for it. Not fear the other shoe so much.

Peace,

A V