Too Much Information

No -not the TMI of sordid sexual escapades, details of bodily functions, fantasy or revenge scenarios but actual, holy crap my head is going to explode, too much information. That kind.

Since I have found more free time than work, I have put into use the student loan (that I am falling behind on paying by the way) and signed up for as many classes as I  could.  Stopped thinking, “What if I get a job and have to drop that class and then pay the drop fee too?” Worry about that if it happens, and it has not. Just plow in head first and finish this freaking 1000 hours already.

First off, let me say it is not the best idea to take two energy based classes at the same time. I don’t know what you know about energetic body work, chakras, meridians, auras and the like but, I can tell you this: it has a lot to do with emotions. My worst subject. And having to get in there and stir that crap up not just once but, twice a week was more than a bit difficult for me.  I can say with confidence, as much as I have learned, will use, and will attempt to make use of, it sucked out loud. Really loud.

Along with this, just for balance, I am also taking the exact opposite, western style class, all science and mechanics. Two of them. Classes that is.  Loving it. Learning a ton and know for CERTAIN the information, technique and knowledge, will be put to good use.

The thing is – I am missing out on what I am learning since I am spending so much time moving on to the next thing. No time to assimilate, practice, feel and experience the changes trying to occur.  Eight hours in class and come home to shift gears and read, write about a completely different topic. I am missing some important stuff!

Yes, that is what school is like, and good students are the ones that can do it. I am not the student I once was. I try, but it is not like it was 30 years ago!

I bring this up as I just read a blog post by the most brilliant man I know (luckily my best friend as well) on how multi-tasking, rapid thought processing and change of topics is his strength.  Read it here.

I played Myst for three weeks. I could get off the dock and walk around the next little bit of land and that was it. Never got anywhere else. Obviously gamer, high-speed thinker, strategist and tactician are not my gifts.

So what are they then? I started to think on this while looking at a stack of binders, books and notes all acquired in the last 30 days or so. Thinking that I have attended nine, eight-hour long classes in the last eleven days, driven over six hundred miles to do so, still have one more today,  and I wonder if I know what I am doing.

How well have I learned this stuff? Am I just putting in the time or am I taking in the information as well? I know I am but on what level? Have I tried to get too much information? Will it sluff off when I start yet another class in a few weeks?

Being a productive high power multitasking CEO or anything else that requires those qualities is not likely for me. I wonder what is then? Where will my path lead? What will I do with the information I am gathering? Will I use it on me or others or just share it for them to decide on their own? Will I just forget it all when I find a worker-bee job in a cube?

It would be really nice to have just  bit of that stragety-tactic stuff right about now. Not the excessive wonder thang.

Peace, A V