Ouch –

How much does it suck that I could not even get an interview for a minimum wage side-walk-sweeper-guy at a theme park? Listening to that while reading the fortune my cookie had given me just a few days ago, “Your Future Looks Bright” Hey cookie, can you define bright please?

Spent a good part of the day being between disgruntled and flat out pissed off at the failure of other people to do their jobs – which makes my job harder to do than necessary. Would not be so bad if the excuses were left out and simply admit, “I fucked that up and you like a jackass because of it” Dude, you’re pissing down my back and trying to tell me its rain. Surprise, I have been around the block once or twice. I’ve lied so well I don’t even know they are lies any more myself! Stop costing me money would ya? Sheesh.

I should chuck everything in the ocean and got to Iowa. Sure, geographicals  seldom help. I wonder if that’s true when you’re not drinking or using?

Massage school, although a great deal of fun and very interesting, has proven to be a useless venture. A very expensive but useless effort. I suppose my ‘vibe – aura – personality’ just sucks enough to make me repulsive to anyone wanting to ‘get better’. It seems, the sick do not heal the sick and the sick know one another by sight.

How is it that the longer I do not drink the more and more only bartending comes up as work? WTF? 20 useless months. Great.

Oh well – just discouraged and pissed off. Rambling. That’s all.  Now I have wasted your time too. neener-neener-neener.

I had something I thought as funny but when it was in writing, just too creepy. I am close enough to incarceration as is, no need to fuel the fire.

Ant