Well, let’s just say I have nothing special or in particular to share at the moment. That does not mean by the end of the page I will not have. Just not starting out with that intention. That being said, let’s talk intentions.
In school, massage therapy – holistic health practitioner tract – when doing body work or energy work (same thing actually) grounding yourself and focusing you intention is vital. Before I started this type of study I just did not believe in the energy, vibe, mind thing. Imaginary wanna-be witch-craft stuff. I have known about meditation and had even attempted it. I tend to become very agitated and well, pissed off when I meditate. One thought at a time? PUHLEEZ! More like a round table of various voices all clamoring at the other to shut the hell up and MEDITATE! 20 minutes and I was exhausted.
I learned first about the need to focus when receiving body work. Then some wonderful teachers and fellow students have made great efforts to educate me further on it. I can say now, with all confidence and conviction, the human organism is energetic and you can effect it, on an energetic level, your own and others. It does kinda suck when it makes you puke. Oh well – still learning.
I keep studying and getting no where when it comes to finding work in the body work field. I believe there is something to this space, this open access to myself, that has something to do with it. Seems, and I’ve mentioned this before, prospective employers now make a habit of ‘googleing’ the names of applicants.
I’m doomed. Looks like self employment all over again! Need some body work? Call me. Maybe I should be a waiter. Summer time and all that.
What else? Winston and Fallstaff are FAT! Spike and Zeus are fine but still do not like each other. New habitats for all four. Anyone need a bird cage? Have two for sale. Fish tank next on list to enter the fold.
The garden, although small and in low cost (trying to remove the word cheap from my vocabulary) plastic pots is making nice progress. Peppers and tomatoes – very excited.
Garage, messy. House not so much but not perfect either.
Exercise? Uhm, yea.
Sneaking up on one year. I believe, since I am more and more not believing in being an alcoholic, that I shall stop counting after that. Problem drinker, sure, I’ll wear that label all weekend long. I don’t see any good reason to drink again and have no intention too. So, after June 4th, just going to leave it a closed subject. Besides, I will still need a job and I know this conversation here has not helped me at ALL!
Oh, yea, this will help! 28 days of generic Zoloft. Can I tell? Not sure. I sleep. If this is what ‘normal’ people sleep like and what it feels like, then I can now, for the first time ever, appreciate why you all seem to enjoy it so much! Seven hours in a row, and rested when its over? Hmm. Not a bad thing at all. I do feel a bit more level and at peace. I do not like the idea that I have slowed down but not sure why I don’t. Lost my ‘edge’? Hope what wit I thought I had sticks around..
Church, faith, God. Still learning, listening, showing up. Still praying, trying to behave, be open to receive. Learned my Spiritual Gifts and was only surprised by one. Am not using any for me, God, or anyone else. Trying to reconcile the work I am doing in school with what I am hearing and learning at church. Need to ask some one, from each side, about it.
The Complete Works of William Shakespeare, Abridged. Coming up in July, set aside some time – funny show and I am in it!
Synopsis – I feel good, I am doing good, I need a real job or a good lotto tic. I need to sell some bird cages and take guitar lessons. Still going blind but don’t really care yet. Life, just like it is for everyone else I suppose.
Peace, Ant-Knee
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