What was I thinking?

OK, its that time, make a resolution. Most have not intention of keeping it. I thought this year I would be different. Pick one that I could, would and keep up. I narrowed it down to two:

1) Through a regular schedule of exercise, gain some strength, flexibility, stamina and about 10 pounds so people will stop telling me I look sick.

2) Stop swearing, cursing and saying God or Jesus in any situation not specifically about either.

I opted for #2. I looked at it like this. With #1, there would always be too many convenient excuses. It is after all, exercise. I’m tired, I’m sick, I’m busy, I’m damaged blah blah blah. Having been born with a freakishly large rationalization gene to begin with, the idea that I would, 3 or 4 times a week on any consistent basis, set aside even forty-five minutes, and use them for the intended purpose, is really just absurd.

Yes, it does need to be done and soon. Very soon.

#2 on the other hand, that is just simple self control and will power. Some retraining maybe. “All you have to do is think before you speak”

Today, January 1st 2008, for need of money and lack of any other offer, I started back to work as a bartender. What ever made me think that standing and walking around behind a bar for eight straight hours would not qualify as exercise? My knees hurts, my feet hurt my back hurts. Just like after exercising!

What made me think I could be in a room with a bunch of hungover folks watching college football (they actually care about it) and Think before I spoke? Where was my head when I thought the normal 500 word vocabulary, along with nine cliches and seven standard phrases that make up the majority of bar room conversation and communication, could still be mastered with so many fewer words?

There is not excuse or rationalization about swearing. If I do it, it is on me. Clear, simple, truth. I choose the words that I utter, good, bad, right, wrong and usually incorrectly. Some big words are just fun to say.

So, I am going into the extra room shortly to organize the weights, set up the TV/DVD for Tai Chi instructional. Hopefully it goes well or will have nothing to say to quell or satisfy my frustration, aggravation.

Uh, oh yea, Happy New Year! (?)

Ant-Knee