Is this a test?

If any of you have been out looking for work lately, have applied for a job for a company that is part of a ‘corporation’, you probably know about the on line application process. This is not for the kind of job that requires a resume, education or even a skill. These are the jobs that make things work, happen, get from A to B or from a shelf to your trunk. These are the jobs performed by the unnoticed masses. Nothing glamorous or that will sustain you indoors  in South Orange County for very long. If your lucky, full time enough for medical. Just a job. A tweak to the self esteem. ( no matter what you are doing, it helps to be doing, even if you are the only one to know how hard you are trying to do it the best you are able)

One of the interesting things about the process is the “test” at the end. 25 pages, 5 questions per page, obvious personality test. Not quite Dianetic’s but disturbing on a few different levels. (Crap, that sounds paranoid doesn’t it?)

First, why? Sure, you do not want to hire a psycho killer type or kleptomaniac. Some one lazy or with a bad attitude. Can you really figure all that out from a test? I suppose so or they would not be doing this. What if you’re just a poor test taker?

Second, do they take into account that this may have been the third or fourth or tenth time you have filled this thing out? Do they ask  you if at the time you are taking it, it has been only five minutes since realizing you are five days from being homeless and NOT ONE of the other places you have done this for has even acknowledge receipt of your application? Do they know what level of desperation you have reached when you try to answer, “I don’t like people that talk about themselves”, “I sometimes do things that upset people”, “I get angry more often than nervous”?

Third, how many people, companies, agencies, etc, have access to the results of this test? I didn’t have time to study. I know I am a little off center. Now, there is some unknown number of unknown others, once potential employers, that know the same thing. Only they know it better and with greater detail than I do ! I want my results damn it!

I suppose it doesn’t matter that I prove my nuttiness’s. If any potential employer wanted to find out about me, they could google me, find this site, and I would be doomed anyway!

I wonder if I can find out who gets/has those results? I wonder if I am the same on all of them? Maybe I as angry or nervous or sad when I did one. Maybe grateful, happy and excited when I did one. Maybe just in a hurry to try to get on to another application. Hey, I’m looking for a job here! Time is precious.

So, answering as best I can while still wondering if I am screwing myself with each click. Counting the days ’till the first. Feeling more and more paranoid and anxious with each one of those damn things. Still looking for a job too!

Keep saying self-employed in place of unemployed.  I don’t know why or what it is suppose to be helping.  If it’s helping. Maybe just my way of putting all my shit back on myself. What ever happens, my fault/failing. Now I’m getting bummed. Damn it! Where can I take one of those test now? Where do I really not want to work? Timing is everything.

Ant-Knee